3rd time...

just got an email from the hr director of my ex-brand. have only met her once since she joined after i left. so what is the email about? wanted to proach me to join them. this is the 3rd person / time that officially asked me to join them (4th if i count the casual chit chat with my previous counterpart).

so why is it disturbing me? just when i was feeling a bit low about my job (if you read previous postings), the opportunity strikes again. but when i saw the email, i wasn't excited to explore the opportunity. there i sat, thinking about the pros and cons:

pros:
- proper organisation structure / office environment
- it is a bigger brand
- proper benefits since it will be employee status and not on contract
- security / stability as an employee
- know the brand and the fun side of the brand

cons:
- working under 2 direct bosses that are not easy to deal with!
- less flexibility
- less markets to handle or work with
- the pressure to perform since they are calling me the 3rd time and they have not found a candidate since i was first asked about the job late last year. this is the biggest worry coz i can imagine the expectation if i joined them.
- only been in my current job for less than 1 year, no intention to be seen as a job hopper and i haven't really seen my achievement here yet.

so what was my decision? i rejected it for the 3rd time...

is it me?

in 1 week, i wrote 2 keep in touch emails to 2 markets' marketing managers. 1 sent me the email on the day she left and i went to see the other on her last week at work.

such a coincidence? or is it simply not an easy job? but the first thing that crossed my mind - is it me? but i have always be an accomodating franchisor, think they bully me more! haha! but my boss is usually the "bad cop" so i don't think it is me. but that got me thinking deeper again.

as a franchisee, i used to firm, not demanding. confident yet not bullish, passionate and full of drive. am i expecting all the marketing managers to be like that? not that i am perfect, but i am tired of trying to convince people who doesn't really care or those who are clueless.

well, trying to think on the bright side, maybe the 2 new marketing managers are going to be up the mark & makes life easier. can only think of it positively.

is the grass always greener elsewhere?

suddenly felt envious of when you see the works of others.
suddenly felt useless when you are not in control.
suddenly felt lost...

not hating it but not loving it too. need to get the passion engine running...

another long break

haha... this is even a longer "blog-break" from the last. last posting 27 Apr... almost 2 months now. been reminded by lil c to start blogging again...

was it a writer's block like lil c said? or maybe there is nothing worth mentioning? when lil c said i might be jaded at work, i paused to think about it. just 6 months into the job, am i jaded alr?

don't get me wrong. i still like my job (did i use the word like instead of love?), i am still passionate about the brand. but something doesn't seem to get my motor running at the speed i would love to be. then it occurs to me that it is because i am missing to be part of the action. met my ex girls for dinner yest and was just sharing how i love that they are executing ideas that we wanted to do during my time (due to previous mgt's cost control). i think i missed that. although i am supposed to be able to bring to the tables of the franchisees all these ideas, somehow it is a lot harder. oh well, will just have to try my best.

till the next blog... (should this be my permanent sign-off? haha!)