tired physically and emotionally...

it was a tiring week...

had travelled twice in a week... so physically tired from the travelling... also had many late nights... either working or having fun (yes... the mahjong session at the retreat was the cause of being super tired on friday)...

however, i thought i was drained out emotionally on thurs night... it was my last retreat with the company. I thought i could just let loose and have fun after some stressful nights... never expected myself to let loose emotionally thou... was crying non-stop during the dinner... it all started with the songs dedication... was still feeling chirpy and happy when the marketing gals dedicated a song to me... then when DT started humming one of teresa teng's songs to me... those lyrics that goes "how many true friends could you find in a lifetime?" or "how time flies when i cared about you"... ok... my translation makes it sounds cheesy... but at that time... it just triggered the tears... then one thing led to another... Rara chose "leaving on a jet plane" next and when the gang come over to my table... the stop button on the tears just couldn't be activated!!!! what a loser right? didn't want to that to happen... but it did...

think i shocked quite a few people with my outburst... Mama S apparently told the lame one that she was shocked as she thought i was a very strong person... so did SC... who told me the same thing on msn yest... do i really portray this strong character? i never knew i was... maybe it is because of the way i work, but ultimately, i am a very emotionally person... cries easily with reel life (just pass me those romance movies / dramas....), gets touched by little gestures... so maybe it is just the appearance...

oh dear... what is going to happen on my last day?